I was drawn in by this tree during my walk this afternoon and it was sparkling right into my soul. In a strange disconnected way it helped me connect my thoughts and string the following words together.
Usually, I shop every fortnight and today is my shopping weekend. As such, I was supposed to go to the market early then to Aldi and then to Woolworths. Laundry was supposed to have been done and hung out to make the most of the beautiful sunshine and I was supposed to be generally organised. However none of these have happened today because I’m exhausted.
I slept in and had breakfast almost at noon today. I let the kids watch morning TV and make their own breakfast. We left laundry piled up on the floor and have now gone for a walk to the park. I took a couple of pens and my sketchbook and we followed the long scenic route during our walk.
No I haven’t done my menu or shopping list and yes I will do an online shop and pickup tomorrow arvo. No I haven’t figured out lunch or dinner but we’ve got lots of porridge and beans in the pantry. I’m sure I can figure something out at some point today.
Yes I’m learning to abandon convention and definitions of success that I have followed unquestioningly in the past but which left me stressed and frazzled. Yes I’m slowly learning to understand that success needs to serve me and not vice verse. Yes I haven’t quite articulated in a coherent explain to someone else way what my individual definition of success is but I know that my central theme is living a life that is meaningful to me. I also know that meaning is 6 billion times unique and therefore even if I tried to explain what my idea of success is you might not get it. And that’s ok, perhaps that’s how it should be.
I have experienced how the definitions of success we are raised with have not only be defined by others but many times serve other people’s interests rather than ours. I am inspired when we can have open discussions on a range of issues that help us clarify and articulate our own perspectives and values as well as accept the rights of others to have and live guided by theirs.
I hope you find your sparkle and your peace on your path and that you are courageous enough to live a life that is meaningful to you!